gandalf027

Another entry on my super busy journal, just to put some thoughts in order. My head is a really mess. Where the hell do i start ...

Since the death of my girlfriend a few years back, in wich i had a very depressing era almost terminating my life. i've decided to sort off shutdown my emotional section of the brain. not in the friendship area but on the love area.
It seems easy doesnt it?

Now, for the past three months i've been taking sort of a degree in the natural area, natural food, massages etc. This because i'm gona open a shop in this area with a friend of mine. On Saturday it was the last day, so on the afternoon the ppl from the messages departemnt gave some to other students who didn't had that area of study. We were having lunch and one of my coleagues was sitting next to me and we started chating .. and bla bla bla .. so she ended up giving me a massage (very relaxing one btw). Fine by now .. i went home later in the afternoon, had dinner with some friends, and by 1am was sleeping. Never thought of her again, or didn't give a real importance, another good friend in prospective?

Now this is the weird part .. when i woke up on sunday around 10am, i was thinking of her! U know when u wake up and there is this thing imediatly pops on your head? There she was, and through out the day .. always the same thing! DAMN .. it can drive u nutz.
Later yesterday i emailed her, with an info she requested from me, she replied an hour later .. and then i replied and asked her for watching a movie later on the week ..
After pressing the send button .. aaaaaaaaaaaaaaaah ... what the hell have i done?!?! I don0t knwo anything from her, if she has a boyfriend, now i feel like a did a stupid thing .. now i don't know how shes gona react, and it kills me.

Oh well, it cant get worst than this ...

Time is a thing we cannot control, i have none at the moment, it seems rush but it isn't. Why the hell there aren't days with 30 hours or more? Damn!

Well, i've made a few changes to the LJ, finaly!

Btw, been listening a lot to the Album of Ana Johnsson, the gal that made the music for the Spiderman 2 soundtrack, very good one, very rockish.

Well 4am .. need to get some sleep, or i'll get zombie like!

Cheers!

Hmmmmm .. this is always the difficult part, writing anything. Well but i've made a few words .. so it's not that difficult after all.

Well, yesterday was a great day, was in Belgium watching the F1 GP, and good old Schumacher won it .. the best ever. But the thing that stroke me the most, was the sympathy of the Belgium ppl, they almost seem like portuguese ones eheh.

Not bad for a 1st entry .. let's wait for more :D

Cheers!